Ugly

I’m trying to smile brightly but
I don’t like it
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful

I’m trying to sing but
No one is listening
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful

Why am I this ugly
What must I do for me to be able to smile brightly like you?

I’m getting angry again, why can’t I ever be perfect
I simply put the blame on my ugly appearance
In this broken mirror

Don’t look at me, I hate this feeling right now
I want to hide away somewhere, I want to escape
This world is full of lies

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

Don’t tell me that you can understand me so easily
My ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you
Don’t force me to talk, I’m not right for you
The cold thorns inside that patronizing gaze suffocate me

Don’t come closer, I don’t even want your concern
I want to leave away to somewhere, I want to shout out
This world is full of lies

There is no such thing as warmth
There is no one by my side

There’s no such thing as warmth
Next to my side, there’s not even anyone to embrace me